Acts 9:1-20 – Third Sunday of Easter â€“ for April 10, 2016
â€œAfter they picked Saul up from the ground, he opened his eyes but he couldnâ€™t see. So they led him by the hand into Damascusâ€¦â€ (Acts 9:8)
Back* in 2009, The Blind Side made wheelbarrows of money and garnered Sandra Bullock an Oscar. I recently watched it again. The filmâ€™s title refers to a football teamâ€™s need to protect a quarterbackâ€™s blind side. Nasty things can happen when a quarterback focuses on a receiver while an unseen opponent approaches to thwart the play.
But itâ€™s more than a football phrase.
Thereâ€™s still Survivor, the ancient reality show. Contestants fret about blindsides. Whenâ€”not ifâ€”will another player stab them in the proverbial back? Promises will be tossed under a bus . . . or the nearest coconut tree.
Years agoâ€”yes, I recall the exact dateâ€”a United Methodist District Superintendent called to say Iâ€™d be moving to a different church. Nothing like answering the phone near bedtime to learn your whole world has been upended. He and I never got along. But he possessed the bureaucratic power to rearrange my future. Call me blindsided.
Have you been blindsided? Hasnâ€™t everyone experienced a â€œbadâ€ thing that unexpectedly caused havoc?
And yet blindsides can be good. My wife and I just celebrated anniversary #32! The first time I spotted my future bride was way, way back in the early 1980s. She sat on the left side of the chapelâ€™s last row when I stood to preach at the early service. Who is she? Whoa! (If asked a few days before that sight for soaring eyes, I figured to never recover from my first marriage and lousy divorce.)
Saul of Tarsus was blindsided. On his sojourn to Damascus, Saul (not yet Paul) had an agenda . . . the Acts of the Apostles gleefully proclaimed he was â€œspewing out murderous threats against the Lordâ€™s disciples.â€ Saul seemed a mean-hearted, butt-kicking, Jesus-hating dude. Then, God blindsided him. Conversion!
Literally, according to scripture, Paul lost his sight somewhere between blazing light, a heavenly voice, and smacking the ground. Or maybe he didnâ€™t. Even a casual reader of the Bible will notice thereâ€™s a difference between Actsâ€™ dramatic rendering of Paulâ€™s conversion and places (like the opening of Galatians) where Paul personally wrote about his transformation. I view Acts as part history and part a zealous effort to make the rise of the followers of Christ look good. Really, really good.
Bad Saul became good Paul! As a kid in Sunday school I was inspired by the comic book-like renderings on Paulâ€™s conversion. He was usually sprawled on the ground while his horseâ€”the steed heâ€™d been astride seconds beforeâ€”appeared spooked. Nowadays I read Acts as a thoughtful adult and think . . . Geez, what horse?
I decided to search for one of those old-time illustrations and Googled â€œPaul,â€ â€œconversionâ€ and â€œDamascus.â€ And what did I find? Not some saccharine Sunday school drawing, but the Conversion on the Way to Damascus from the brilliant, troubled Michelangelo Caravaggio (1571-1610). Caravaggioâ€™s brushstrokes were bold, his colors vivid.
And thereâ€™s a horse!
Acts never mentioned a horse. (The people with Paul â€œled him by the handâ€ after he was struck blind). But adding a horse added drama. Whether sketches in a Sunday school handout or a Renaissance masterpiece, we exaggerate.
Every conversion is different. Some are quiet; some spectacular like a rearing horse. Some, like good old John Wesley of my Methodist tribe, have hearts â€œstrangely warmed.â€ The closest Iâ€™ve come to a conversion experience was my call to the ministry. It included a solitary walk and a view of the mountains. Unbidden words of encouragement flooded my mind, having little to do with my thoughts and more with Godâ€™s nudging and nurturing. Since that â€œcall,â€ Iâ€™ve looked back and imagined the walk as longer or the nearby mountains more foreboding. All in all, though, being as honest as possible with memories, my call, my conversion, was mostly low-key.
Except that it transformed my life.
With Paul, he couldnâ€™t see a thing. With me, I suddenly saw. Both ways work. How was your conversion? Dramatic? Not? Havenâ€™t had one yet? Maybe tomorrow. Maybe you never will. Was my long-ago conversion as important as my next conversation? Will I choose to be honest . . . or not? Vulnerable . . . or not? Forgiving . . . or not?
The blind side of me knows I spend important time making important plans but frequently plop on my derriÃ¨re. The blind side of me knows that someâ€”including meâ€”embellish events in the retelling. We paint a horse into the scene or foothills take on Everest-like proportions.
But I believe all of us are straight-armed by the unexpected and get bucked off the horse named Iâ€™m In Control.
We land on holy ground named My Conversion and have a new or renewed chance to see and hear as never before.
*And by the by, if you’re an astute reader of my blog with a remarkable memory, you may recall a version of this essay was published in 2010. Since I was writing around my wedding anniversary, I decided to take a break from the rigors of a first draftÂ . . . and spend more time with my wife. A “re-run” to the rescue!