I Kings 18:20-39Â – The Second Sunday after Pentecost – for Sunday, June 2, 2013
â€œThen Elijah said to all the people, come closer to meâ€¦â€ (I Kings 18:30)
I resent Elijah.
Yeah, I mean the Old Testament prophet. The guy in Kings (the original I Kings and the sequel II Kings) who yanked the holier-than-thou rug out from under the bad boys of Baal.
Midway through I Kings a mano a mano confrontation occurred between the Lordâ€™s singular servant Elijah and four hundred and fifty Baal Busters. (With that many Baal buds, maybe it should be described as a mano a mucho mano smackdown!)
It was the Lord vs. Baal and each side sought to demonstrate the dominance of their deity.
A crowd gathered for a contest of Biblical proportions. The networks, cable outlets and papyrus media showed up in force. NBC jostled for the best camera angle with Al Jazeera. A well coiffed CNN anchor elbowed the snarky reporter from the New York Times.
Ground rules were established. A bull would be sacrificed (picture Wall Streetâ€™s famous statue for a dramatic twist in this tense tale of Whoâ€™s real and whatâ€™s not). Human hands couldnâ€™t touch the cow; God alone would do the bovine deed.
The Baal Gang beseeched their god to work wonders.
Show the people a sign!
Nothing. Throats raw and lungs heaving, all four hundred and fifty voices ceased. Silence reigned. Expectations grew.
Elijah strode forward. He made a request of the Lord, the divine One with a capital G in God. Iâ€™ll condense the prophetâ€™s three verses long (I Kings 18:36-38) preamble to one of the best outdoor barbeques depicted in the Old and New Testaments with . . .
Give â€˜em a sign, God!
The Lord Almighty, Creator of Heaven and Earth, Universe Maker and Divine Dude did. Whoa! The bull got sacrificed! Roasted faith! Grilled glory! Holy Smoke!
Hooray for God. Hooray for Godâ€™s prophet. Hooray for . . .
And yet this is where I resent Elijah.
Why canâ€™t I have signs like Elijah? Iâ€™m not talking about burning bushes or grilling bulls in my backyard, but wouldnâ€™t we all like God to be a tad more obvious? And Iâ€™m not talking about seeking Holy hints or answers to childish things like whether or not Iâ€™ll get the proverbial bike for Christmas or the ways to achieve an â€œAâ€ on an algebra test (though a passing grade in any math course for me would require divine signs and interventions).
Why not something like the freeway sign in Steve Martinâ€™s 1991 film L.A. Story? Was this the right woman for him? Could he not have a sign to understand his next step?
Some comfortably and eagerly mention â€œsignsâ€ from God. In recent years, a bevy of books* have chronicled personal experiences in heaven. Proof of an afterlife spawned best-sellers for this life. In my work at hospice, the bereaved have shared about encounters with inexplicable â€œsignsâ€ (a hummingbird appearing, a clockâ€™s alarm sounding, a door opening or closing) that confirmed a loved one had communicated with them after death.
And then thereâ€™s an absence of signs. At a grief support group I facilitated, a participant admitted sheâ€™d been surprised she hadnâ€™t dreamed about her spouse. How much she missed him! She described herself as someone who frequently dreamed. But not once since his death had he â€œappearedâ€ as she slumbered. Others in the group nodded their heads in agreement. For a few moments, they bemoaned their own lack of confirmation, of â€œsigns,â€ through nighttime dreams.
What about daytime â€œsigns?â€ Years ago, in the primordial era before cell phones occupied every pocket and purse, I took a vacation while awaiting a job interview. I wanted the position. I sensed God was nudging me to say â€œYesâ€ to the new opportunity. The call came and I was interviewed in Yosemite Valley on a pay phone. I fielded questions while gazing at Half Dome. I spoke of my gifts and graces, blessed by the crown jewel of the Sierra Nevada. What a â€œsign!â€
I didnâ€™t get the job.
Iâ€™m thankful for Elijahâ€™s contest with the Baal Gang. His tale helps believers glimpse the ancient, and yet still relevant, conflict between polytheism and monotheism, between stale fears and sacred hopes.
Burning bushes are rare. The bull ambles away, never becoming Oklahoma Joeâ€™s** best spare ribs or a petty godâ€™s sacrifice. Half Dome refuses to smile on a new job. Questions about cancer or career remain uncertain and anguished. Todd Burpoâ€™s kid* scampers through paradise, but all I get are next monthâ€™s bills. Elijah got his Holy answer, so why canâ€™t the signs along the roads of our lives divinely state, â€œKiss Herâ€ or â€œWalk Away?â€
I believe Iâ€™ve experienced Holy nudges, Godly gesturesâ€”though (oh, how I revere this phrase) I could be wrong. Maybe itâ€™s merely endorphins or right-brained intuition, but Iâ€™ve said the right thing at the right time, chosen silence when Iâ€™d usually blather on, risked the unfamiliar, embraced the fear, opened (or kept closed) a door. All because I sensed the Other, the Mystery, guiding me.
Mostly the â€œsignsâ€ Iâ€™ve experienced are guesses and glimpses, as fragile as a butterflyâ€™s wing. With just enough vulnerability, I look back on my life and believe God provided signs. None were as bullish as Elijahâ€™s, none transported me to heaven, but sacred whispers have, and continue to, lure me toward love.
What signs of wonder have you seen?
*For example, Todd Burpoâ€™s Heaven is for Real: A Little Boy’s Astounding Story of His Trip to Heaven and Back or Eben Alexanderâ€™s Proof of Heaven: A Neurosurgeon’s Journey into the Afterlife.
**This is a blatant plug for Oklahoma Joeâ€™s, which is where my friend Doug Worgul worksâ€¦heâ€™s also the author of â€œThin Blue Smoke,â€ which you should order as soon as youâ€™ve finished this footnote.